I have been navigating deep levels of personal transition the last few months. This has required me to pull back from pretty much all external stimuli as new levels of embodiment and self expression have been trying to land in the physical body. I've had to put off sessions and barely had space to do the group events. Since about December, the work we've done through the solar alchemical cycle of 2023 and 2024 has been trying to land into the physical and it has brought in new levels of sensitivity that I have been struggling to integrate.
This has magnified anything held in the systems that has not been serving and has been extremely taxing on the nervous system. Initially, I believed that I simply needed to give my nervous system time to completely disconnect and rest - especially considering the high impact this work has on the nervous system. Any stimuli was locking up the physical body.. and the weight of all I had been putting off was weighing on me mentally, emotionally, and physically.
That process of rest was extremely beneficial but it wasn't the answer - any stimulation was still overloading the nervous system. So I started working hard on the physical body, working with the fascia to help give the body space so the frequency could move. I would spend entire days intuitively stretching that would be followed by intense physical detox that would take a number of days to move through and then the fascia would recoil and lock up; feeling unsafe with the energy wanting to integrate. All of the shame, guilt, and confusion regarding my process was still magnified.
It still wasn't enough... BUT the body was beginning to increase in its energetic bandwidth. I then went hard to work with my Light Linguistics but at a new level. I re-membered that the body wanted to use EVERY part of itself - not just the mudras, not just the sounds. Every single element of the physical body.. each like its own instrument in a symphony of frequency! I spent entire days doing this, sessions of 6 hours or more... and giving the body space to integrate.
THIS is what the body wanted! The nervous system was trying to MOVE. It wanted to DANCE. It wanted to SING. It wanted to PLAY. It doesn't want this just some of the time (such as in sessions or events) it wants it ALL the time. It has been a potent reminder that this is a journey of EMBODIMENT, not necessarily "ascension". It's time to simply BE more of our authentic selves!
This has magnified anything held in the systems that has not been serving and has been extremely taxing on the nervous system. Initially, I believed that I simply needed to give my nervous system time to completely disconnect and rest - especially considering the high impact this work has on the nervous system. Any stimuli was locking up the physical body.. and the weight of all I had been putting off was weighing on me mentally, emotionally, and physically.
That process of rest was extremely beneficial but it wasn't the answer - any stimulation was still overloading the nervous system. So I started working hard on the physical body, working with the fascia to help give the body space so the frequency could move. I would spend entire days intuitively stretching that would be followed by intense physical detox that would take a number of days to move through and then the fascia would recoil and lock up; feeling unsafe with the energy wanting to integrate. All of the shame, guilt, and confusion regarding my process was still magnified.
It still wasn't enough... BUT the body was beginning to increase in its energetic bandwidth. I then went hard to work with my Light Linguistics but at a new level. I re-membered that the body wanted to use EVERY part of itself - not just the mudras, not just the sounds. Every single element of the physical body.. each like its own instrument in a symphony of frequency! I spent entire days doing this, sessions of 6 hours or more... and giving the body space to integrate.
THIS is what the body wanted! The nervous system was trying to MOVE. It wanted to DANCE. It wanted to SING. It wanted to PLAY. It doesn't want this just some of the time (such as in sessions or events) it wants it ALL the time. It has been a potent reminder that this is a journey of EMBODIMENT, not necessarily "ascension". It's time to simply BE more of our authentic selves!
So I am now in the process of teaching my human that it's safe to express again. I had pulled back so much of myself, in fear of being even more misunderstood... but the body communicates and keeps tally and we're reaching a point in many of our journeys where this can no longer be overlooked. We can't hide it. The nervous system will speak to us and give us the true score.
We have been guided to facilitate an upcoming donation based quantum healing transmission to help our nervous system and its allies be seen, heard, felt... and give it the bandwidth to ENLIGHTEN UP a bit.
We have been guided to facilitate an upcoming donation based quantum healing transmission to help our nervous system and its allies be seen, heard, felt... and give it the bandwidth to ENLIGHTEN UP a bit.